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It's been quite some time I've been here ...
Even with some shorts included.

So what's new?

I think thats a question that goes both ways ...
Here around it seems it's going as cushy as my life ...
But that is only judged fromthe Mistreated Forum-section.
From the Blog side of the Matter I've got a lot to read ^^
(Hmm ... beats reading books where I know evry single letter inside-out)

I had some good Parties ... most unplanned and by Invitation
Some bad Raids ... (is it just me ... or are Inteligence and WoW-Gamer two things that does not come together?)
And some Interesting twist that were far from suspected ...

As for the Unsuspectipeng part of my life: I got a standing Invitation to move to Praque ... and as far as it seems it is likely that it will work out.

Wich is great in my Eyes ...'cause for a couple of years it felt like I was stagnating in my life where I'm standing at the moment.
AND it is a "True" Artist city ... and with miy momentary Lifestyle I am everything ... but creative ... (that sucks)

Latley I had some trouble, with my landlord ... he's kind of making a war against the renters ... sadly he can't differ between those idiots twenty years ago ... and today. :(

As for all the friendshiprequests ... I will take my time to judge ... but they are not unnoticed ^^

And the worst thing to tell: I became a "true network-whore" ... that's coming with my Facebook-account ... if that is not Prostitution of personal information ... I don't know what :P

In this sense: Keep on Rocking
Till the next word of me

... knows how to handle chaos.

Yeah, then I must be the next Einstein.
Nonetheless: Where the F*** Is that SH** I'm always looking for ???
Maybe i'm such a great genius as one might guess, according to the KaOhZ, I rule over.

Conclusion: sort trough and bring the trash out ...
Problem: ... I won't stay in the garbagecan

Great so i gonna sort trough and be happy with the rest ... or i'll do it like always ... I skipp the cleaning and sorting alltogether and just be happy.
Unless of course I won't find the stuff I need ... wich lately has become regular.
So there's no arguing about it ... I NEED to clean up my mess ... and I HATE cleaning up ...
but even with my habit of throwing shit I do not need right away ... I stumble over TOO much shit I do not need anymore.

In this sense, I stop here. Before this Random piece of Sh** , truly becomes a piece of SH**!
And Always remember: Stay cool and serve the KAHOZ !!!

First I need to start with this:
... ... and if you don't like it, ...

As some most probably already read, I'm stuck in Azeroth.
And yes it's fun ... most of the times.

But sometimes there are some ... troubles I do NOT care about, nor take any interrest in ...
In this case it was some total weird shit, coming along my way.
Better start from the begining.
And that is here: I'm the "Addon-Master" for my guild, therefore I need to check and erase some addon's.
Sadly I had a systemcrash and lost my backup-folder due this process.
(YES, when I crash my system, I do it troughly )
Anyway I also took the opportunity to clean up some more from my Addonfolder ...

DANG!

I totaly forgot, that this would also reset most of my options ...
After spending another couple of hours, it all was up and running. With a perfect timing for that announced Dungeon-run ...

And here's another of my "life-time-miserys" ... Too many of the people I know and call friends can't get along well ...
Here for exsample, I brought someone non-guild into that dungeon (because she always asks me todo some with her), and some of my guildmates know her ... all ingame ofcourse ...
So I figured everything would come out fine ...

TOTALY AND UTTERLY WRONG!

As soon as we entered the dungeon, it all became laggy as hell ... I got disconected, and had to relog ... even with my internetaccsess ...

Wich was just another slap to my mood, that was at that time alreday not the best.
And as soon as I showed up again, the first thing that greeted me was some BITCHING about some loot ... WTF
I pretty soon anounced that I'm not interrested in shit like that, and just wanted to finish the dungeon ...
But .... NOOOOO !
Everyone kept bitching ... and wanted me to resolve it.
Helloho ??? Anyone there that can use their BRAINS !
I AM NOT INTERRESTED IN SUCH SQUABBLE ABOUT SUCH THINGS!

But they wouldn't stop complaining ... AND did not explain wtf is going on ...

I'glad that you can logoff.
wich was my last resort, of not biting into my keyboard ...

After that logoff, I just got out and fetched me a Sixpack beer.

I hadn't yet the will to face them, for another talk ... but that is unaviodable ... for it's eating on me.

So I need to finish this total meaningless rant of MMO-life ... wich resembles TOO much of my Real-life ...
9Wich is a shocking expierience)

The only thing left to finish it, is a greeting:
May Insanity guide you safely !

Well, yeah! It ain't, ya know ...
...
Okay, I think I, I have to clearify that a bit.
Since I haven't seen this month any money, I went into the city, for raising some money ... or food. (I lay Tarotcards for a gift)

Anyway, I met some old buddys of mine. ALL PUNK!
Up to that point, I had already enough to refill my fridge, for a couple of days. And then the party got rolling.
Beer, smoke, music, bad jokes ...
And MANY people not knowing how to handle a bunch of happy, partying, drunk, stoned, freaky looking, loud Punkz!

But the best were thosoe, that asked if they might join.
They did ... and left half an hour later ...
It's just amusing when some "normal" people think they could change slacker.
Well, anyway, my greeting of that day was:
Satan-Claus and the pest-kid greet thee !
And by now i get sick of it myself.

I would not say I did some X-Mess ... It was more like the old Yule.
But who cares ... 'twas a good party.

Do it better. And don't forget: PUNKZ NOT DEAD! But the world keeps dying!

... and my Bank-Accounbt just got killed ...
...
And everytime it happens, that I got no food AND no money,
I start to go back to my old way of sitting in the city and lay some Tarotcards ...
...
Wich reminds me: I got a little sissy over the years!
I where used to sit outside with a little less then 0 degree Celsius for 8 hours or so ...
And now I start shivering with something between 2 and 7 degree Celsius,
AND had to stand up every 20 minutes for an hour or so ...

So, If there is anyone that tells you, that sitting on the street, for some food or money, is NOT exhausting ... S/He tells you a lie.

Nothing is harder than survival ... on nothing that is usefull.

Although not everyone sits there by choice ...
others do, but don't try to judge/guess who's who ... most of the time you will be slightly off ...

The best thing I can advise here:
Don't try that yourself.
Living on the street IS very free and unbound ...
But also soulconsuming and exhausting

And here I finish ... with the immortal words of Austin Powers:
Oh, Behave

Sometimes i'm wondering:

When will i ever learn ?
Why am i doing this ?
How can it be, that I'm ALWAYS help others ... but deny my own problems ?

For exsample at the moment:
I lost my bank account, need to run after my monthly money and haven't seen my friends in two or three months ('cuz the money-shortage) ...

But NOOOOO, I help another friend of mine getting sorted with her problems ...

All in all it's not only disturbing, but outright annoying !
It doesn't matter how often I offer some solution ... She knows better ...
No matter how unworkablle her ways are ... She knows better ...
Regardless how strong my need for somekind of break ... I'm still helping

And then she starts whining about how weak she is and how she can't go on ...
WTF ! She KNOWS about my situation too ... but i'm still there ...
Damn why bother help those ... super-annoying people, I call friend(s) ...

I think there are two reasons for that:
First: I like helping and being there for my friends
Second: It's me ... and I won't change myself anymore (at least not that much)

Well anyway, some lessons I learned in life are:

- When you think you lost all power to do anything, you gain a powersurge from some unknown place deep inside ...

- The own cross to carry is ALWAYS the heaviest ...

- If you give up on yourself, you have lost ...

And I question myself always why I'm helping, if those few and simple things are totaly and utterly denied ...
At and this point I end up with the conclusion that forms the title of this written nonsense:

I'm TOO good for this world !


EDIT: Wow, I must be really worn ... it's more of a rant then I intended.

Tags: Good World

Being manic-depressive is ...
- Amusing. Because everyone around you is wondering, if that what you just did Insane, stupid or ingenious. Some of the looks are hilarious.
- Annoying. Because you'll never know what you do next. Sometimes you wonder yourself why the heck I just did that?
- Exhausting. Because you put your whole heart and soul in everything you do.
- Exhilarating, for you never seen the world passing by, in such ravishing beauty and colorfull darkness.

... So all in all it's a lifestyle. But beware what music you're listen to. Sometimes it affects you more then on might expect. Or, with some experience you can use that to your advantage.
So, live life in the fast lane. And don't forget: Who brakes is a chicken.

Tags: Manic Depression Music